WebKittyn Warbles
Thursday, December 09, 2004
Blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
So I'm back in Dobbs now. I won't call it home, this is not my home. This is where I may reside but this is not home.
Got home late, it was raining pretty hard and the roads were crowded and wet. I hadn't slept at all the night before so all I've been doing since I got back is trying to catch up on sleep and deal with the Gotard's crap and not slip into a funk for Christmas.
The music helped a lot this morning. I needed to turn Pete up real loud and Cool Change and I needed to belt Bat Out of Hell out with the mustard bottle to prove I still could. I think tonight I'll be ready to go back to people. If Gotard stops his craziness.
The money stuff has me bothered no matter how much I try and say it doesn't. I went nuts last year, I'm still paying off last year so I shouldn't feel bad that I don't have a cent this year but I do. I like being able to give nice gifts - Hell, ANY gifts - but this year I just don't have it. Oh well, who says gifts have to be given in December. I'll have Christmas in March after the money situation has improved a bit.
Gotard is driving me crazy, I don't understand why every time I go upstate he decides to take a vacation from life. You're running out of time and youth, Gotard.
Now this is what I need for a snicker, a middle aged man walking out onto the Springer set in a nightie. Hard not to smile when you're looking at that.
I don't know what I'm going to do with today, probably sleep a bit. Tonight I need to ask an alien to help me with another install of MT for my parents store but I'm pretty friggin' tired right now. Gotard's alarm got me at 8:50 (didn't wake Gotard). The guest room is two windows down from the Lair of the Black Worm and with the windows open his alarm sounds like it's right there. Couldn't get to sleep last night, watched a bit of Imus on MSNBC and now my eyes are droopy.
Holidays always make people either overwhelmed, depressed or feeling out of control. Even with the ho ho spirit, it's impossible not to feel overwhelmed. There's so much to do it's just easier to run from it all and not do any of it and just sleep. I've got Christmas cards I need to send out, I've got emails I need to answer (that's you, Tony), I've got sites to design, I've got shit to wrap, I've got blogs to make, I've got messes to clean, I've got shit to build... The MT ProNet sent out a REALLY awesome and easy lead the other day, I could have breezed through this job and gotten paid for it but noooooo, I just don't have the mindset and that pisses me off.
This is it though. This is the last pissy whine I'm going to post until the end of the year (not counting my annual "Look at all the shit you didn't accomplish this year" beat down I give myself every 12/31). I'm going to sleep and I'm going to douse myself in Jim Nabors, Bing and Bowie, Christmas in Sarajevo (currently playing) and get into the spirit.
I just needed to get this out of my head, I feel cleansed now.
Jesus, this is a powerful song. I think Gotard has the Trans-Siberian orchestra cd, I need more of this.
Ho ho ho.
Got home late, it was raining pretty hard and the roads were crowded and wet. I hadn't slept at all the night before so all I've been doing since I got back is trying to catch up on sleep and deal with the Gotard's crap and not slip into a funk for Christmas.
The music helped a lot this morning. I needed to turn Pete up real loud and Cool Change and I needed to belt Bat Out of Hell out with the mustard bottle to prove I still could. I think tonight I'll be ready to go back to people. If Gotard stops his craziness.
The money stuff has me bothered no matter how much I try and say it doesn't. I went nuts last year, I'm still paying off last year so I shouldn't feel bad that I don't have a cent this year but I do. I like being able to give nice gifts - Hell, ANY gifts - but this year I just don't have it. Oh well, who says gifts have to be given in December. I'll have Christmas in March after the money situation has improved a bit.
Gotard is driving me crazy, I don't understand why every time I go upstate he decides to take a vacation from life. You're running out of time and youth, Gotard.
Now this is what I need for a snicker, a middle aged man walking out onto the Springer set in a nightie. Hard not to smile when you're looking at that.
I don't know what I'm going to do with today, probably sleep a bit. Tonight I need to ask an alien to help me with another install of MT for my parents store but I'm pretty friggin' tired right now. Gotard's alarm got me at 8:50 (didn't wake Gotard). The guest room is two windows down from the Lair of the Black Worm and with the windows open his alarm sounds like it's right there. Couldn't get to sleep last night, watched a bit of Imus on MSNBC and now my eyes are droopy.
Holidays always make people either overwhelmed, depressed or feeling out of control. Even with the ho ho spirit, it's impossible not to feel overwhelmed. There's so much to do it's just easier to run from it all and not do any of it and just sleep. I've got Christmas cards I need to send out, I've got emails I need to answer (that's you, Tony), I've got sites to design, I've got shit to wrap, I've got blogs to make, I've got messes to clean, I've got shit to build... The MT ProNet sent out a REALLY awesome and easy lead the other day, I could have breezed through this job and gotten paid for it but noooooo, I just don't have the mindset and that pisses me off.
This is it though. This is the last pissy whine I'm going to post until the end of the year (not counting my annual "Look at all the shit you didn't accomplish this year" beat down I give myself every 12/31). I'm going to sleep and I'm going to douse myself in Jim Nabors, Bing and Bowie, Christmas in Sarajevo (currently playing) and get into the spirit.
I just needed to get this out of my head, I feel cleansed now.
Jesus, this is a powerful song. I think Gotard has the Trans-Siberian orchestra cd, I need more of this.
Ho ho ho.
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