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Tuesday, March 08, 2011
About Me and My Return to Blogging
There's been a lot of stuff I've been wanting to write about lately, time to put this blog back to use. Not yet, I want to get this out there first as I'm not entirely sure how I feel about the blog being linked to facebook. My blog has been my little corner of the internet world since 2004 and while I'm not a "power blogger," I had a few steady readers who would wander over to check out what was up and leave a comment.
I stopped using the blog, it became a place of sadness and death and disease and looking at it depressed me. Time to change that as I've started to change my life.
I'm torn about linking the blog to facebook. I like the fact that I know there are some people who are interested and would want to read what's there and don't have the time to go wandering blog after blog. I appreciate these people.
On the flip side, I don't want people feeling like they have to read it or I expect them to read it. I don't. I'm not looking for attention or pity or really even to be noticed. Not with the blog entries.
I also have strong opinions on myself and where I'm going. I'm tough on myself and it comes across in my writing and I can see where it can be construed as fishing for people to come pat me on the back. Not the case.
I also wear my heart on my sleeve. I've never cared about spilling my guts on my blog, the good as well as the bad. I'm an emotional person, always have been. If I'm feeling sad, I'm going to be sad and it will come across. I don't need pats on the back, sad passes. I just write what I'm feeling and I don't write in my blog for the sake of others.
I've made a whole slew of mistakes and bad choices over the past two years and I've recently decided to tackle them all and fix the damage I've done. It's not going to be easy and I'm sure I'll have periods of weakness that to those looking for something to judge might sound like whining or moping. Maybe it is, maybe it will be. It will pass.
I think of myself as pretty strong with all I've been through and I'm going to change what I need to change, that's not up for debate anymore.
But I'm definitely not for everyone. I don't need to be judged, healed (unless you've got some magical cure for end stage renal failure), fixed, taped back together or hand-fed biscuits of pity.
Yes, I am damaged goods and partially broken but I've finally realised what I need to do to fix myself and it's already started.
Best piece of advice I can give the casual facebook friend is when you see the little yellow NetworkedBlogs circle under the entry, might be a good time to click on. I won't be hurt if no one reads or comments. This is my journey and while the support is appreciated, the results are up to me and the work is on me.
Blogging has helped me figure things out for seven years. I need that right now and I'm returning to what I know.
So that's my disclaimer. Today was the first day of the Nutrisystem, tomorrow is the stomach doctor, it's getting done. Right now I'm up, in three days my spirits might be down.
It's okay if you don't like me because of what I write, it's okay if you think I'm insane or doing the wrong things or not on the right thought path. I'll get there.
Remember, NetworkedBlogs posts are completely read at your own risk and no judging please.
Thank you.
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Hon, you are no more damaged goods than the rest us of… Well, maybe literally you are - thank you, kidneys! - but we all have our crap and our monsters to deal with, and you deal with yours much better than a lot of people I know. I know I’m a pretty quiet friend these days, but I’ll be reading and cheering you on as always.
Kel on 03/08 at 09:12 AM
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