WebKittyn Warbles

Saturday, January 06, 2007

Aloof? Me?

Yesterday I was told I'm 'aloof' and 'distant.' This made me stop and mull. Me? I'm pretty much the most un-aloof person I've run across but I can see where this person was coming from. It's not the first time I've heard it, particularly lately. It's not aloof though, it really isn't.

What may pass as aloof is actually my inability to function while doing too many things at once. At any given time while online I've got: People on MUD A wanting to talk, people on MUD B wanting to talk, people in the station chat room (which always seems to have people in it, show or no show) wanting to talk, people on IM wanting to talk, people wanting to be DJs, bands wanting to be played and 25 sites I have determined WILL get done this year (resolution 22). So trust me, it's not about aloof.

I've been staying off of most of the messengers and no one besides my closest friends seem interested in the new icq number so it's been a little less but I guess I can see where I come across as standoffish.

I do the same thing with email, too. I love email, I cherish each and every email that is not spam and yet I have a horrible habit of waiting forever to reply. It sucks, I know that sucks but I can't help it. I have the best intentions and then I get going on something else and poof, it's out of my scope of thought.

Example? Okay, I can do that. It's a new year. We have 17 hours of music in the station default rotation. It's time for a change and by change I don't just mean yanking a few and adding a few. It's time to pull all the songs in the rotation, make sure all my tags are on the money and then upload the new batch of songs which will bring us to 24 hours of music and a few commercials without repeating. It's not rocket science but it's time consuming and slightly detail-involved. So I get into this and the next thing I know I've got people on the MUD saying 'Lorna's never around' or 'Kali's dead again.' I don't blame them, not all MUDders are interested in the station and it's tedious for them to explain so I just sit quiet and continue working.

I'm not aloof, just set on getting everything done for once in my life instead of talking about a dozen different possibilities. I've talked enough, it's time to make this a year of action and see if any of it pans out. If not, it's only a year.

So please, if I don't answer your IM or email do not take it personally. Kick me again and I'll be there, promise. I'm already partially feeble, I was born partially feeble, so cut me some slack.

Really, it's not aloof.

Warbled by WebKittyn at 08:18 pm in

• Self Relfections

Permalink