WebKittyn Warbles
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Contemplative
Ever wonder what people really think of you? I'm not being cute here, it's 2:38 AM and I'm sitting here deep in thought. I don't mean it like har har, if you only knew what they REALLY thought of you... I'm dead serious.
Everyone is important to someone or a few people but do people really let people know when they matter? No. We've gotten so secretive about our feelings as a whole, it's personal sin to let people know what you think of them.
I've been thinking too much lately, part of my self induced exile into thought. I have no idea what the people closest to me (or so I believed them to be) really think of me, this dawned on me the other day. And it's not just that part of it, I listen to people and I hear so much stigma attached to sharing one's emotions. "What if I tell her I like her and she says no or doesn't feel the same way" is one I hear a lot. My answer? So what. Take the risk, life is full of risks and the day we stop taking them is the day we cease to live and begin merely to exist.
We never seem to learn from past mistakes. People can be gone in the blink of an eye never to return and we spend the rest of our lives wishing we had spoken up. If only, if only.
I thought I knew where I stood with some people in my world but it seems I was mistaken. Or I wouldn't know because it's a world of silence we dwell in. Not the comfortable kind. It's difficult to say this without sounding like a Drama Mama but I've wondered if people would even care if I just more or less vanished. This was thought over in a pragmatic what if sort of way, not the 'oh, no one would care, boo hoo' way of drama.
Everything feels like it's changing fast, I need to stop over thinking.
<-- Steal me!
