Friday, March 07, 2008

From the Depths of the Muck, It Warbles

No, I'm not dead. Sorry to disappoint but there remains some life in me.

Don't expect much from this entry, I'm feeling crappy and it won't be nearly as long as it should be but I wanted to let people know I'm not dead. It's just all different now. Everything has changed, I've changed. What was my life is no more and the person I was while I lived that life has also ceased to exist. It took nearly losing my dad (we're still not out of the water), my own near death experiences, surgery, 16 days in the hospital and all the rest of it I'll eventually write about to to make me understand a few things and with that understanding came changes in who I am.

Kingston Hospital is not a place I would recommend. There are a few great nurses but overall it's a bad place. Doping people up on so many meds they don't know what day it is instead of finding out what's wrong is not the best philosophy. Absentee doctors and nurses who think they're doctors don't help. Surgery that ends up being unnecessary? Painful. Doctors that are so fat they waddle when they walk and verbally insult patients in rooms full of people? Ugh. You get the picture. Consider yourself warned. If you ever get sick in the mid-Hudson Valley, go to Benedictine Hospital instead.

Wait, don't let us forget allowing patients to damn near kill themselves by controlling their own IV morphine pump the night they get out of surgery isn't smart.

I have a lot of people I need to thank eventually. Darkstar's been great with the updates and he was there for me for the entire ordeal. Cyli got all the dork bloggers to leave comments and she was a better friend than some of my real-world friends. All the amazing people who sent stuff in the hospital, I was completely blown away. The woman who delivered the stuff told me she couldn't believe how many cards and gifts I received and every one meant the world to me as did the phone calls.

It's been a rough month since I got out of Kingdom Hospital. My legs seem to have stopped working whilst I was doped up in there. When I first came home I could hardly walk at all, when I got in the house the first thing I did was fall on the floor and have to crawl to the bed. My second night home I decided to take a bath and got stuck in the tub for 2 hours. No matter how hard I tried I could not pick myself up, I thought I was going to have to be rescued (naked) by the Red Hook Fire Department but eventually I crawled onto the bathroom floor, into some clothes and to bed. Every step still hurts and I've fallen more than a few times but I can pick myself up now at least.

I have no idea what the hell caused this but I'm determined to beat it. Every day I make myself walk a little more or do something different to re-gain my strength. Scary shit.

They sent me home with 13 prescriptions, some of which I didn't need. I don't have high cholesterol or high blood pressure but they had me taking Lipitor and TWO blood pressure meds my new doctor up here immediately took me off. The Prednisone they put me on for the sarcodosis I don't have bloated my cheeks and messed me up as well, that too is no more and when the Prednisone stopped, so did the high blood sugar. I knew I wasn't a diabetic.

There's been a whole lot of other stuff as well but I'm saving it for future posts or I'll be here forever. I may even start up a sub-blog on the domain just to tell the whole story and how it impacted my mind and my body, it's a hell of a story.

My dad is currently at the rehab center, he almost died more than once and the fact that he's there and they're predicting he WILL come home is a testament to his strength. It's going to be a long haul, he is not a well man but this place is good and he is making progress.

If you'll excuse me, I'm feeling that 'oh bugger I'm going to puke again' feeling and I don't move to the bathroom very quickly these days,

I'll be back, since I'm not dead and all.

1. Welcome back to life ! :-D

    on  03/07  at  04:24 AM

2. Oh My Gawd, Everyday I checked for a post from you - knowing you were home at least. Were it not for Darkstar’s updates, I might surely have gone mad!  Lady, I know you’re still feeling rough, but I have faith in you and your daddy to get mending and be stronger and better in the coming days or weeks. I love you woman and I am soooooooooo glad to see this. You have my number, call me anytime you want to vent, rant, cry, or just scream WTF. Or for any other reason for that matter. Big, but gentle hugs to you Kittyn. Good to see you again.

   All My Love,
   Cyli

   Cyli  on  03/07  at  07:44 AM

3. Its been a rough road kittyn, rest easy and get well soon, your friends are with you.

    on  03/07  at  08:52 AM

4. Prednisone is some really awful awful shit. I don’t what it is about that terrible steroid drug that jacks your blood sugar up so high, but it seems to do it to everyone I’ve ever known who was on it. It also makes everyone I know who has ever taken it feel like a great heaping bag of drool. It saps their strength and makes them completely manic. If ever there was a drug that has adverse side-effects, it is that one. I am still convinced that it is the prednisone that finally did my mother-in-law in and made her stop fighting the cancer. (I am also convinced that it is the drug that made her hallucinate and have mood swings that were down right terrifying.)

   Hearing that you were on that drug scares me a little bit, but I am very glad that you are off of it and feeling better. Get better and take the time you need to recover. Keep up the great work with forcing yourself to walk and regain strength. It is really important. You have great willpower to be able to do it and that is a great thing.

   Feel better

   Utopia  on  03/07  at  08:08 PM

5. Oh man...thanks for posting to at least let us know you’re still out there and trying to kick. Anything else can wait, though I am really curious...unnecessary? They cut into your freaking lung and it wasn’t necessary? Holy crap!

   Thumper  on  03/07  at  08:34 PM

6. Hey Kittyn, good to see you back, I was worried about you and prayed for you. Sickness sucks, doesn’t it? Shall keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

   Bobby  on  03/08  at  10:48 PM

7. So glad to see you back, I’ve been checking regularly and worrying - I’ve never seen this blog go so long without a post!

   Take it easy, don’t overdo it - build up your strength steadily, it will take time and willpower but I don’t think you’re lacking in either. Best wishes for a gentle recovery - both for yourself and your Dad.

   Warmest Wishes.

   Seraphim  on  03/09  at  10:57 AM

8. YAy! I’m so glad to know you’re alive. Dale would go for a couple days before posting and I’d ask every time I’d log in if anyone had heard anything. Keep the strength you have. We’re still here and still waiting for your recovery. We can hardly wait until you’re back to yourself again as I’m positive you’re ready to be.

   You and your family are all in my prayers. Please know that I think of you often and fondly.

   With love,
   Mare

   Mare Martell Stotler  on  03/10  at  04:15 PM

9. You’re in my thoughts. I hope you pull through this. Its been too long I know, but get well soon. You have the same strength in you.

   Coyote

   Bob Chapin  on  03/11  at  08:55 AM

10. Welcome back Kali. I’m glad you are home now and I’m happy to see you strong and ready to fight with everything.
    I’m sorry to hear what happen in that hospital (I wasn’t expecting that).

    Hope to hear more good news from you and your dad. Get well and good luck both of you.

    Luci.

    Loky  on  03/11  at  08:36 PM

11. Ahhh, the wonderful sound of a warble!

    YummY!  on  03/17  at  09:09 PM

12. Happy Birthday Kittyn!

    I know you’re going through alot right now, but you have to stay strong so you can recover quickly.

    Hang in there.

     on  03/19  at  04:12 PM

13. Glad you’re back. Hope you get to feeling more alive.

    Andrea  on  03/23  at  04:02 PM

14. Hey there everyone! I spoke with the Kittyn today on the phone. She is a bit down in spirits since her blood pressure keeps going excessively high then plummeting to the depths. She is tired a lot and has dialysis three times a week. She doesn’t have computer access, per se’, but she is trying her best.

    Copy paste the following link into your browser. It is to her friend and roommate’s web page where he updates more frequently than she can. Although it hasn’t been updated since her birthday, it will at least let you know where things stand.

    http://www.blogsofrealplay.com/Members/Darkstar/

    Warning: It has a flashy animated gif on the page that is mildly annoying.

    Mare Martell Stotler  on  03/28  at  07:06 PM

15. Hey kali! It’s soo good to hear that your making progress.  You know we were all worried about you thinking about you constantly hoping to hear the good news.  I’m just sorry it took so long for me to post something. I see that your still having some rough spots, but I know you’ll make it through without any problems.  I look forward to eventually talkin with you.  You’re in my thoughts.  I hope all is well

    Your dumbass,
    Sparky

     on  04/15  at  08:58 PM
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