Sunday, May 14, 2006

I Got A Question!

One of the many fine people I chat with on Yahoo asked me about my favourite past relationship. If I had to go back over all the relationships I've had in my life which one makes me smile the most and holds the best memories. I couldn't answer at first, there's been some odd ones in my life but I think I've decided.

It wasn't Jerry, that ended badly. I'm lucky I got out of that before I ended up barefoot and pregnant with 20 kids.

It wasn't Frank, that was my best fantasy relationship and if it had ever come to fruition I think it would have ruined it. There would have been no way Frank could have lived up to the pedestal I placed him on the demi-god status I assigned him. I worshipped Frank and he will always be a superhero in my book. Frank and I committed mental adultery a thousand times over and that was enough for the both of us.

Vinny was close, I didn't get to spend enough time with Vinny though. That first night when we just drove around talking for hours (Yes, DS. The "Vinny the guinea" cops night) was one of the best nights I ever had in my life to this day. Vinny loved me too much and I was too young to get it. That kind of love scared me.

It wasn't Rich, he was too filled with sadness and my role in his life was pretty much a void filler for the grief he was going through. He had his moments though.

It wasn't ..... That wasn't a relationship, it was possession.

It was Michael. As crazy as those whole three years were they still remain the most fun I've had. The cat and mouse chess game is so very important to me and no one has come close to Michael in cat and mouse. He was such a shithead and at the same time he brought a challenge into my life. Every day was about what the next step would be and who would one-up the other that night and who would get drunk and say stupid shit to be forgotten the next day. I loved this. He treated me like crap and made me his Goddess and it worked perfectly.

As for the other question you asked me.. Don't go by me. My idea of a relationship has always been off the beaten path and my way is not the way most people choose to do things, they actually LIKE being with someone every day. You are an amazing person with a lot to give and some deep intensity in you. If you can share that deep intensity with her I think you'll do fine.

Steer clear of anything that comes/seems too easy. Take risks. Speak your mind.