WebKittyn Warbles
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Kitten Updates
It's 3:00AM and I'm tired. I can't sleep though, if I sleep there's no way either of us will be awake at 6:45.
This is madness, here comes the madness.
Catsby is still in 'grave critical' condition but he's holding on so far. He responded well to the dextrose and the fluids they gave him. He ate a bit. They got his temperature 'up' to 96 degrees (up in quotes as 96 for a cat is really low, if they were happy with 96 he was bad).
He was dying in the living room, his system had begun the shutdown. This rips my heart on so many different levels, this tiny thing was on the floor dying.
It was so sudden. Today was the first day in the week he's been here where he seemed active and like a real kitten. He was exploring the kitchen, tried to eat my sandwich and he was lively. All of a sudden he just went to pieces. No warning and really really fast. It wasn't even one hour between the onset and getting him to the hospital and he was dying.
As if this isn't stressful enough...
The hospital he's at is a special hospital. They're only open when the other vets close. They're open from 6PM to 8AM and then there's no one there during the day.
We have to go get this sick animal by 7:30 tomorrow morning. And oh, please make sure you pay the remaining $400 or so of your $700 bill before you take him.
Our vet doesn't open until 10AM and has no one there at night.
Once he's picked up tomorrow morning, Darkstar gets to take him to the hospital around the block from where he is now, this place opens at 8. The vet at the emergency hospital was firm that he's not well enough to be off fluids for even the 2 hours waiting for our vet. So he gets to spend the day at this other hospital tomorrow day.
This other hospital doesn't have night hours, all the local hospitals use the emergency hospital (where he is now) at night so we have to pick him up at 7PM when this other hospital closes and bring him BACK to the emergency hospital to spend the night. Then we have to be back by 7:30AM Wednesday to get him again.
I'm a mess. The financial aspects haven't hit me yet but this may be the end of the server and the station. I don't care what it costs, I need Catsby to live.
I don't know what we're going to do come Thursday when DS goes back to work and can't do the back and forth thing and us sharing my car for the time being.
I'm terrified of the future. What if he comes back and it happens all over again? I'm a fucken basket case as it is now, if that kitten had died in the living room I would have had to go be sedated. I'm already too emotional about Templeton and in general, watching a kitten die because I'm ill-equipped to provide the proper care terrifies me.
I can't understand why they let him be adopted so young. They HAVE foster parents at the shelter, why wasn't this 5-6 week old kitten sent to a foster home? How do you let someone adopt a baby like that and give no warning or info about something like FKS?
So here I am, teary-eyed and really scared. Big Brother After Dark just went off and it's going to be a long 3.5 hours. I can't sleep, I know I won't wake up and that cannot happen. I'll pop vivarin all night if need be. I'm just so scared and discouraged and sad. He spent the week in my crotch curled up (I sit indian style cross-legged) and mewled every time I got up to leave him. Gah, that just made me cry more. Fuck.
I don't know what to do, I don't know how we're going to do whatever we have to do and there's no guarantee after all is said and done that he'll survive to the 12 week period they say marks the end of the danger period.
I may be crazy but earlier tonight I took Claudie's urn and talked to it. I asked the Ghost-cat to go to Catsby and snuggle up next to him to keep him warm. I asked him to take care of Catsby.
I have no idea what the hell we're going to do. All I know is this little ball of fur has got my heart and I can't handle losing another black and white so soon.
Time to go back to the living room and get lost in some FF Tactics (easy enough to not require concentration but interesting enough to pass 3 hours) or a movie and try not to spend the next 3.5 hours crying and thinking the worst. He made it through so far, he did not die on the living room floor. My cell is on if anyone reads this and feels like calling. Don't take it personal if I don't answer, I'm kind of a major wreck.
Please let this all work out somehow. Whatever it takes we'll do it. I need this kitten more than he needs me.
Please.
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It’s 4 AM and I’m still checking in on you.
I’m amazed that they didn’t tell you anything about FKS, considering the circumstances. My indignation is right there with you.
Catsby has made it this far. Don’t give up yet, I can’t tell you if he’ll live but I can tell you he’s still alive now and that’s enough to keep a momma like you going.
No, you aren’t crazy for seeking the solace of Claude. Claude will be there, guarding him.
He’s still alive, Kittyn. Think about that, instead of death. He’s still alive. There’s still hope.
Bobby on 08/21 at 03:04 AM -
*hug* He’s a fighter; that he’s made it this far is a testament to his strength. I do believe he has a Claude guardian angel, hon. They are snuggling right now.
Kel on 08/21 at 05:00 AM -
God Bless your poor kitten heart. I’ll keep you guys in my thoughts! *hugs*
Nicki on 08/21 at 07:10 AM -
Life can be fragile, but also very strong, If the kitten is improving then he’s moving in the right direction. Cats are quite resiliant, keep the faith kittyn *hug*
on 08/21 at 07:52 AM -
Skye is very much a cat person too, so I can understand how you’re feeling.
I hope the little guy pulls through. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
on 08/21 at 08:32 AM -
Hang in there Kittyn, I know what you’re going through, one of little ones was very sick a few years ago. His kidneys shut down and he was in the hospital for a week.
But maybe you should move Catsby there? It’s Yonkers Animal Hospital 965-0557.Yogi was there on IV overnight and day for about a week.
I board the dog there too and little Geri and Mickey have had to stay overight for medical reasons as well.
You and Catsby are in our thoughts, oh and Darkstar too.
He’s going to get better, and then he’s coming home!
Joe
The BearJoe The Bear on 08/21 at 11:21 AM
<-- Steal me!
