WebKittyn Warbles
Monday, July 25, 2011
Not Much Here
I haven't written anything but cat stuff in a while, I need to get back to regular updating. I find myself getting cranky when I don't get the thoughts out of my head (like I need a reason to get cranky - HA!) so it's back to updating even if I don't have anything of any value to say.
Life continues on. The test results were pretty much what I thought they would be - no change. Kidneys don't regenerate so I knew they wouldn't be better but it was a relief to know they hadn't gotten any worse in three years. The EGFR still read 20% so it was nice to know in my three years of self-sabotage I didn't do any damage.
The one bit of good news he did give me was the order to get the graft deflated. Because it's a graft they can't take it out so I'm stuck with this piece of plastic in my arm for eternity but apparently they cut you open, make an incision and deflate the thing. No more pulsating alien baby in my upper arm, I'm looking forward to that. Opening conversations with "want to feel my pulsating alien baby that lives in my arm?" tends to scare people away.
Still no definite answers on the throwing up, the kidney doctor says it's a GI issue, the GI doctor says it's the kidneys. I'm not really all that sure I want to know, I'm not keen on spending a few days in the hospital while they test and test and test. I've learned to deal with it and the people close to me have learned to deal with it so for now I'll pass on the testing. Some days I'm just going to be useless and weak and I'll stay in bed and barf, just how it is.
People continue to amuse and confuse me. I've been blown away lately by friends I didn't know I had, old and new. Someone called me lucky, I guess in some ways I am. I have no shortage of caring friends I can turn to when I need them and it's really been shown lately. Others confuse me with things unsaid and hot and cold temperatures and walls I'm too short to get over. Justified walls but I don't climb well. Others amuse me to no end with their antics, it's just been a very people-oriented couple of weeks for me and that's something I'm not used to lately. I'm liking it, bring on the people.
I find myself making a crapload of plans for Fall and Winter, it's easy to get lost in daydreaming of all these things I want to do and places I want to go. I can't help but wonder how much of it will actually come to fruition though, where does the daydreaming and and the reality start? I know I plan on having more fun than I have in three years but the where when how and with whom are factors yet to be fully determined (besides going out on an eating spree with Andy Gee because he's definitely the Lord of Good Food in the Westchester area).
Thinking a lot about relationships lately. Friend A's dumbass of a husband just walked out on the best thing he ever had and ever will have and it makes me sad to see my friend sad. Friend A does not deserve to go through this and her husband is an ass. When he wakes up and pulls his head out of his ass and see he took a large dump on the one person in the world who loved him like no one else maybe he'll open his ass-eyes and go crawl back to her and beg her forgiveness. Friend B is going through some really intense shit in their current relationship and it's really deep and damn near killing my friend and that damn near kills me. Nothing I can do or say is worth shit in this one but at least I'm there to listen and sometimes that's enough. Friend C is just starting something that has potential and should be in that giddy happy state but they're not as half of that one doesn't believe in sharing feelings and the other half is the complete opposite. I was talking to her this morning and you could just hear how into this dude she is but he's like a stone. I told her to give it some time, people are wary and sometimes it just takes time to get people to open their hearts. That's one situation I know on a firsthand personal basis so on that one I felt qualified to give some advice..
I've been neglecting the new site, the music is almost ALL CLEANED (can I have a hallelujah, please) and I'm determined to finish SAM once and for all, without Meathe. I've got people I trust enough to let them access my drive if I can't get it so I'm working my ass off to get this done, finally. I've held back on advertising and such because I didn't like the product enough but with SAM going, all will be golden.
Weird moods here lately, strangely emotionally needy for me. I'm not an emotionally needy person (unless we're talking about Darkstar who constantly gets whiney texts asking 'where is the loooooove?') but lately I've been like that. I'm not entirely sure I like it, I'm sort of hoping it goes away and I go back to the stoic. In the interim I'll just pester Darkstar even more and whine for hugs on facebook! *snickers*
Got a strange email today I haven't had time to process yet. In no way a bad email, just not something I was expecting to get from a person I wasn't expecting to write out of the blue so along with a smile comes processing. May take me some time to correctly word a reply but there will be one. Anyone who actually manages to genuinely surprise me is definitely worthy of a well thought-out reply, I don't surprise easy.
My beloved chatroom is back at RTVZone so I've been hanging out in there with the like-minded crazies who got attached both to Big Brother and the chat community. This was a big yay for me, I honestly went and registered on EVERY one of the major Big Brother sites and each and every chat was a bust. I don't like the IRC format, the chats went by too fast, the people were idiots, they were all kids, etc. Screw that, I found a home and I'm glad it's back and that's where my ass will be until the last houseguest is out of the house or Rachel implodes on the live feeds an we all get to see it.
So that's where things are at for now. I woke up with a smile and life overall aint that bad for the moment. Could be better but I'm not complaining (much). I never know what I'm in store for when I wake up these days and that's kind of exciting.
I promise to go back to regular updating, I just re-charged my blogging battery.
VIVA LA GOONCH
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Hallelujah!
And, I may be weird, but I for one would love to see your pulsating alien baby that lives in your arm.
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I haven’t written much lately because nothing much has happened, well apart from a man asking to buy one of our lambs so now we have four lambs left out of the seventeen we had in February. And then there was another man who stopped by yesterday and asked to buy two adult sheep which he collected yesterday evening, turning up unexpectedly just as I was getting ready to set off to my French choir rehearsals which made me fret about arriving late which always makes me arrive strung up but not to worry because the rehearsal was enjoyable although the pressure is on now because we have two major concerts in the first two weeks of June, one of which is in Bayonne, and that requires staying over night with the members of the Bayonne choir so I hope I get to stay with someone nice but I hope they do not expect to stay here when the Bayonne choir returns here later on in the year as we don’t have anywhere we could put them up apart from a tent in the field.
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The one bit of advantageous word he did furnish me was the request to get the graft deflated. Because it’s a insert they can’t bang it out so I’m cragfast with this cloth of impressible in my arm for infinity but ostensibly they cut you artless, neaten an prick and deprecate the thing. No much rhythmical alien soul in my upper arm, I’m sensing first to that. Opening that lives in my arm?” tends to fright people departed.
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And then there was news from our roofer, Jean Pierre, to say that Danny, our builder, had met with an unfortunate accident whereby he fell three metres through a ceiling as it collapsed beneath him. The bad news is that our bathroom is now not going to be completed although it is probably half a day off finishing, but the good news is that Danny will live to see another day despite having a wound in the side wall of his chest from the wood floor boards tearing away at him. Ah well. Have managed with a flannel and bowl to wash in for nearly four years so can manage a few more weeks.
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