Friday, March 23, 2007

Then It Hit Me

Wow, seems I fell asleep at 11:15-ish. Now I'll be up all day.

I initially came over here to write something about the KMRL cleanup and the drama. A few people have asked me what was up so I figured I'd do it all in one warble. I was all set to rant on about people who simply cannot be honest and how anytime there are many women in the same place there will be cats and claws and stupidity you don't get with men.

Then I realised.

I just don't care that much.

Out of the ones who left and who I expect will be leaving in the next few days, only one even bothers me a little and that was because of the deliberate dishonesty.

The rest of them/it?

I just don't care enough to warble. Hell, I didn't even read the last few emails. Right to the deleted mail with the drama.

It seems to fit with the quitting smoking and all the other changes. It's time to clean out a whole lotta clutter and Fate stepped in to do my job for me which I appreciate.

There will always be dishonest people and people out for only themselves but they're not always worth specific warbles.

Quitting smoking has calmed me. Let them think I'm a bitch, the sun will still shine. Once you've owned a MUD you've really felt the crap of others, this is nothing.

It's exciting now. The station has a lot more open time and I can get some of the different sorts of shows in there I've been looking for to fill weekends. One is utterly not me, it's rather Opie and Anthony like but there's an audience for that sort of thing.

So my apologies to the curious. Let's just leave it as it was time to make changes and be like Eminem and clean out the closet. You won't get any scoop from me and I'm not going to bad-mouth anyone, no need to be small.

Weird. I should care more about them but I just don't. One advantage to not getting close to all except one and that's the one that stings but even that is a small sting. DJs come, DJs go and after six months of having the station I think myself and the other owners have come up with some ideas for change based on the first six months.

I would like to thank Monty and Bug for letting me vent and for being real.

Later on I'll be posting more about what sort of shows we're looking for. It's a harsh realisation when you sit down and go over your shows and discover 90% of them are too much the same. The same music, the same sort of talk pattern, the same sound as everything else on the net. No one's fault but my own, I accept that but no one ever worked hard to achieve average.

Oh, I had to go and look this up as it bothered me. The correct spelling is Kum Ba Yah.

I've started stop two of the patch, the 14mg one. It's a little thing, exciting to think I haven't smoked in 44 days. I spent 4 days up here with a smoker and as long as the window was open it didn't bother me and it didn't make me want to smoke at all. I'm proud of myself.

Now I'm going to post this and try to get back to sleep. It just surprised me that I didn't care.

I like change. Clean closets and blank slates make for truly exciting possibilities.

1. I sorry things are crazy right now. I hope you know that I never called you a Ninny I was talking about the other guys involed. You are an awsome women. Focus on yourself and your needs not that of others.

   katkat  on  03/23  at  07:14 AM

2. New starts are fun

    on  03/23  at  01:17 PM
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