Monday, December 03, 2007

Updates and Bleh

It really is true. The people you need the most and would expect to be the strongest sources of support are usually the ones who let you down hard. I get that now. I get a lot now. Don't let me and my family crisis get in the way of anyone's television shows or just sitting there, really. I'm fine. I've got cats and a healthy amount of self pity to get me by.

Faith Anne, I'll call you tomorrow. Just kind of twitchy tonight. I should have gotten in touch with you when he got sick.

So there was a bit of news today. It's good news for the most part but not definitive and I'm remaining cautious.

My mother asked them to get some sort of second opinion, some sort of something. They got the infectious disease specialist from Vassar. He came and took blood, urine and mucous from his nose. One of the tests came back positive for the flu. He had a flu shot November 3rd and no fever so they weren't sure what to make of it.

Today it blossomed into full-blown flu. Fever of 102 and full-force flu.

They pumped him full of something and started him on yet another antibiotic and it seems to be doing something. They were able to lower the respirator to 80% instead of it doing the 100% of his breathing it had been. He's holding steady at 80% and that's a positive.

They don't know if there is any permanent damage to his respiratory system, it's too early to tell. They don't know if there is any neurological damage, they neurologist will test him once the flu has faded. My mother had to wear a cap, gown and mask to see him and because I sneezed 3 times last night I was told to stay here.

But it's a diagnoses. It's something. It's 20% less than it was.

They lowered his sedation while she was there and there was no doubt he was fully aware she was there. He can't talk of course with the tube down his throat but he nodded and shook his head to one or two yes/no questions and he squeezed her hand.

It's something. It's 20% less than it was.

My mother's going to work tomorrow so I get the joy of sitting here alone in this house all day which is going to suck. I sit there in his den and mope.

I want so desperately to get my hopes up but I can't until they take that tube out of his throat, until I see he can breathe on his own again.

The flu. The goddamn flu and he HAD the flu shot.

Someone kick me, this is a bad dream, right?

But it's something. It's 20% less than it was.

1. I’m glad I can hear good news. Hold tight to these and don’t try to remember the worst ones eventhough it’s difficult. A big hug to you and your family and a big hug also to the cats

    on  12/03  at  03:26 AM

2. Flu shots don’t work for all strains of the flu. That’s a sad fact. Hope things keep looking better even if it’s just little by little.

   (((HUGS)))

   Andrea  on  12/03  at  06:43 AM

3. 20% is a good start towards recovery.  Hang on sweetie, we’re all here for you!

   Nicki  on  12/03  at  08:58 AM

4. Here’s hoping the progress continues in the positive direction!

    on  12/03  at  09:16 AM
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