WebKittyn Warbles

People have been asking me when the pod person came along and took over my body. Who is this person who suddenly wants to climb mountains and chase dreams and do things she's never had any interest in doing before.

I don't really know, I confuse myself sometimes too.

A big part of it has to do with almost dying. There's too much out there I still want to do and to think I almost died without doing it woke me up. Too many people to spend time with, too many places to explore and too much I haven't tried. I'll be damned if I'm going to be one of those people who drops dead before all their friends and then the friends gather around and spend hours talking about all the things the dearly departed wanted to do and never got to.

It really is that simple, life really can be that short. Took almost dropping dead on the den floor to figure it out but better late than never.

We put so many restraints on ourselves. What if he/she rejects me. What if I fall into a crevasse? What if I make a fool of myself in public? What if this person or that person thinks I'm wrong or crazy? We let people influence our thoughts and even when they mean well it still sinks in. We let fear and inhibitions control our actions.

I'm working every day to not be that way. I will accomplish that list in 2009 and lawsuit permitting, I will get to Everest and I will spend 3 months traveling around in an RV and I will meet all the people I love already.

There is still doubt, there is still fear, there is still unsureness but I control it instead of it controlling me.

Nothing falls into our laps. It's all there but we have to get up and go for it.

Too many people I need to hug before I die, even one or two I wouldn't mind some 'quality time' with. Too many places to see and mountains to climb and whales to save.

Besides, if I'm going to die it might as well be in a crevasse.