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Yesterday I received 'Another Life' by Andrew Vachss in the mail and I kid you not, I cried when I read the inside cover. Can it really be the 'final Burke' book?

If he kills Burke off I'm going to freak. Seriously freak.

The first Burke book, 'Flood,' came out in 1985 and after that followed 16 more Burke books before this final one and every single one has made me hold my breath, cry like a baby, rage, cheer for a group of underdogs and antiheroes and think. Few characters have been a part of my life for as long as Burke or as steadily as Burke.

So to go into this one knowing it's the last time I will ever feel that rush that comes with a new Burke book is a sad event.

Vachss has always been my number one and I've urged my friends to read his work and to read about the man who wrote the work to further appreciate the ugly truths that go into every page. I've grown up with Burke and his family and I'm going to miss him.

The Burke series is the only complete series I have all in first editions, some signed. They are cherished possessions.

I can't bring myself to read it yet, as long as I haven't read it it's not the end of Burke for me.

I will read and savour anything Andrew Vachss writes and to date I've read them all but nothing will ever come close to Burke, there will never be another Burke.

There will be tears when I get to the final chapter and it's going to take all I have not to read the last few pages first just to make sure he doesn't kill Burke off, I couldn't take that.

Thank you, Mr. Vachss. Thank you for over twenty years of being there for me. Thank you for giving me the chance to experience Burke and to get to know him through the books. Thank you for bucking the critics and for fighting the good fight and saving the dogs.

For anyone who hasn't read a Burke book, I can't recommend it highly enough. They're not easy reads and much of the content is outright disturbing but it all comes from the atrocities we do to those who are vulnerable. The truth needs telling and for many years Andrew Vachss has been telling it and living it and fighting it.

I miss you already, Burke.



** The Official Andrew Vachss Website is here**

"Someone close to you has a secret crush on you."

Awwwww.

I feel special, thank you horoscope.

Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

They wear coats at Everest, it's okay to put on a coat when going outside.

And socks.

"A gypsy wind is blowing warm tonight
The sky is starlit and the time is right
And still you're tellin' me you have to go
Before you leave there's something you should know
Yeah something you should know babe

I've seen you smiling in the summer sun
I've seen your long hair flying when you run
I've made my mind up that it's meant to be
Someday lady you'll accomp'ny me

Someday lady you'll accomp'ny me
Out where the rivers meet the sounding sea
You're high above me now, you're wild and free ah but
Someday lady you'll accomp'ny me
Someday lady you'll accomp'ny me

Some people say that love's a losin' game
You start with fire but you lose the flame
The ashes smolder but the warmth's soon gone
You end up cold and lonely on your own

I'll take my chances babe i'ii risk it all
I'll win your love or i'ii take the fall
I've made my mind up girl it's meant to be
Someday lady you'll accomp'ny me
Someday lady you'll accomp'ny me

It's written down some where, it's got to be
You're high above me flyin' wild and free
Oh but someday lady you'll accomp'ny me
Someday lady you'll accomp'ny me

Someday lady you'll accomp'ny me
Out where the rivers meet the sounding sea
I feel it in my soul, it's meant to be
Oh someday lady you'll accomp'ny me
Somedaylady you'll accomp'ny me"

People have been asking me when the pod person came along and took over my body. Who is this person who suddenly wants to climb mountains and chase dreams and do things she's never had any interest in doing before.

I don't really know, I confuse myself sometimes too.

A big part of it has to do with almost dying. There's too much out there I still want to do and to think I almost died without doing it woke me up. Too many people to spend time with, too many places to explore and too much I haven't tried. I'll be damned if I'm going to be one of those people who drops dead before all their friends and then the friends gather around and spend hours talking about all the things the dearly departed wanted to do and never got to.

It really is that simple, life really can be that short. Took almost dropping dead on the den floor to figure it out but better late than never.

We put so many restraints on ourselves. What if he/she rejects me. What if I fall into a crevasse? What if I make a fool of myself in public? What if this person or that person thinks I'm wrong or crazy? We let people influence our thoughts and even when they mean well it still sinks in. We let fear and inhibitions control our actions.

I'm working every day to not be that way. I will accomplish that list in 2009 and lawsuit permitting, I will get to Everest and I will spend 3 months traveling around in an RV and I will meet all the people I love already.

There is still doubt, there is still fear, there is still unsureness but I control it instead of it controlling me.

Nothing falls into our laps. It's all there but we have to get up and go for it.

Too many people I need to hug before I die, even one or two I wouldn't mind some 'quality time' with. Too many places to see and mountains to climb and whales to save.

Besides, if I'm going to die it might as well be in a crevasse.

It's Saturday night, it's too quiet, Vorcet isn't here.

So I'm hopping in the command chair and claiming the station for a bit to play stuff I want to hear.

This isn't a show, I'm just in the mood to play some weird stuff and since I'm listening to it anyway, might as well broadcast.

Come back tomorrow for our regularly scheduled quality broadcasting!

Tonight you listen at your own risk!

Stuff *I* like!

If you really want something, you go for it. I mean really want something so bad it haunts you. You set your mind to it and you go for it.

Maybe you won't get it if you try. Maybe it'll take a lot of work. Maybe it's out of reach.

Screw all that.

You want it bad enough, you turn a deaf ear to the wise words of others and you make it happen.

Worse to go to the grave having tried with all you've got and failed than to go to the grave with nothing but doubts and shoulda-woulda-coulda.

If you really and truly want something, go for it and go for it hard.

I'm going to come back to this and update each time one of them happens.

This is my list of things I hope to accomplish in the new year.

20 Things To Do in 2009

1. Train for Everest
2. Push lawsuit
3. Enroll in phlebotomy training
4. Rent RV for 2 month jaunt including SONIC THE SONIC
5. Meet the people I should have met years ago
6. Have midnight sex in a cemetery
7. Rent a house
8. Spend a week with the monks at Mt. Tremper
9. Find some volunteer work and do it
10. Get the graft out of my arm
11. Go to a ski lodge
12. Put up one website a month, except when traveling in RV
13. Ride a motorcycle really fast on a highway
14. Swim naked under the stars somewhere in nature
15. Make friends in Woodstock, find Todd Rundgren
16. Have sex in a hot tub
17. Touch one person's life in a way that matters
18. Get cleared to get off disability
19. Add 5 shows to KMRL
20. Buy lots of boots